Updates and a treacherey

So my life has been relatively calm lately which scares me. With so much turmoil behind me I can't help but feel like it's the eye of the storm. It doesn't make me cautious though it only makes me more crazy to enjoy every minute of this. So yeah right now I'm living it up. Even though I hate christmas. All it represents is lies to me. Twisted huh? oh well. I had fun @ Alisha's b-day party. We parted like... well like we were considerably younger than we are. But all this time to think I've had lately is making me koo koo. So I'll probably doing more stuff like that soon. But for now I've got a Treachery and a poem to realive... my... tension. (lol love you ALEX)

Treacherey.

1. I do realize what you are doing for me and all I can say is THANK YOU. You have no idea how much I need you right now. Just don't think i don't appreciate it. And especially don't think I don't appreciate YOU.

2.I secretly cackle at your downfalls. We all have our flaws.

3.Don't push my buttons because with you I feel safe enough to push back.

4. I know I'm a horrible person, you don't have to remind me.

5. I am so very sorry.

6. I'm not sorry at all. And that makes me worried.

7. Grow up and get smart. Think about someone else for a change and make some sacrifices. We ALL have too and you are simply NOT an exception.

8. I really wish you didn't see me that way. I really wish everyone didn't see me that way. But they do and I am so sorry.

9. I really can't control myself around you. This is going to be a long brake.

10. You are truly a god send and just what I needed right now. I don't know what I'd do without the happiness you've brought me. I'm happy we are friends.

And the poem...

Ehh it's kinda crap:


Twinkle twinkle little star
keep up the lies
don't show who you are

Twinkle twinkle little star
don't stop for the fallen
keep fighting your war

Twinkle twinkle little star
don't face your problems
just run, and run far

Twinkle twinkle little star
I once was you
I've got the same scars

Twinkle twinkle little star
do you even remeber
who you were

Twinkle twinkle little star
the things you do aren't good
your so bizzare

Twinkle twinkle little star
do you see now
how wrong you are?

Hope you liked 'em cause I liked doing 'em :)